I’m just going to say it.
I did not vote for Hillary Clinton. Do with this what you will.
Up until this point, I have been very hush-hush on the blogosphere regarding my deep-footed stance in this election. In fact, I never intended on posting something like this at all, let alone on the eve of the newest president-elect. But suddenly I feel filled with confidence, and I think I’ve finally realized why I feel so strongly about this, and I guess, truth be told, I don’t really care who doesn’t agree with me.
Who I voted for doesn’t matter. But I feel very strongly about who I didn’t vote for, and that is Secretary Hillary Clinton.
The polls are slowly closing, and what we see so far is tighter than the yarn I’m trying to learn how to knit in between sentences. I think it’s safe to say a pretty even 50% of the country will win tonight, and 50% will lose. Probably the closest election ever. Definitely in my lifetime (which, lets be real, consisted of like five presidential elections between like, three people). I’m having flashbacks to last week’s World Series. But I digress.
One thing above all has stood out to me this election year. Mostly the answer I get from the majority of Clinton supporters I have spoken with. They are voting her “because she’s a woman.”
I get it. We are making history. We already made history when she got the nomination. However I don’t think it’s a reason to vote for someone with quite the seedy track record, and even more, I don’t think we are sending the message we all think we are.
“I’m voting for Hillary because I want my daughter to know that she can be anything she wants to be.”
I already knew this. I knew this because my parents instilled this in me from the beginning of time, aka 1989. Personally? I think the idea that this woman taking over the oval office is necessary for them to feel that they are capable of anything is actually a pretty shitty message to send to them. You can do anything you want to just because you can. Not because someone paved the road for you. My vagina doesn’t need her vagina for me to know that I can and do own my own business. It doesn’t need her in order to know that I have just as much say in matters as my husband, if not more, because occasionally I am a biotch.
It bothers me that she acts as though without her, women are going to be set back into the dark ages. You are not the champion you think you are, Hillary Clinton, and not everyone is buying what you’re selling.
I don’t have children yet, but when I do, my daughters will know that they can be whomever, and whatever they set their mind to, because that’s what my husband and I will teach them.
I don’t have children yet, but I am someone’s child, and I know from personal experience that the foundation on which my life, independence, work ethic, motivation, and ambition rests was laid down by my parents. Not by my government. We no longer live in the days where women can’t vote, and women can’t have a say. We have more career women today than ever before, and forgive me for not wanting to credit Hillary Clinton for an accomplishment that had very little to do with her.
I don’t want to go on and on about this, but regardless of who wins or loses, Hillary Clinton is not what makes women strong. She is not what makes us successful. She is not what makes us just as good as men. We had no trouble realizing we were more or less equals a few years ago. I’m not sure when this ugly sexism cancer came out of remission. Probably right around the time racism came back with a vengeance.
We are in a very divisive time, and it was around long before Donald Trump threw his hat in the ring. So we can pretend all we want that his is his fault, because he makes for a very convenient scapegoat. But maybe someday it will ring more clearly that this division didn’t just happen overnight. It has been a long time coming for the last eight years. It will be interesting to see what it’s like after a potential 12.
Either way. No matter who ends up in the White House, it’s up to us to make the real changes. No amount of legalizing gay marriage will change a homophobe’s mind. No amount of women to take the oval office will suddenly make a sexist man see us as equals. And no amount of racial equality will fix the backwards mind of a racist.
You can lead a horse to water, but you will never make it drink. The “change” we are seeking isn’t in the White House, it’s in ourselves.